the innocence of my youth looked outwards

The mystery of the stars

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the wisdom of my experience looked inwards

the revelation of my light

Don't know who that was

Someone wearing your skin

I let him in

Wore different threads

hands to his head

walked in your shoes

singing the blues

Looked through new frames

and layers of pain

still couldn’t see

as he waited to flee

Fog hung low and thick

I'm going to be sick

Came during the week

perfect design

to not spend much time

Slick getaway

Armour cold grey slate

Not responsible for his current state

Pushed all his feelings

out through me

cried for both of us

He stood emotionlessly

Underestimated his investment

Not enough bags

He left a few things

He left a lot more

My necklace on his bookshelf

sandals on his bedroom floor

My heart smashed small as glitter

seven oceans across the sky

he held me tight as I cried

all summer I never saw the sun

plucked out both my eyes

so I could see within

i ran and i ran

till sky’s pink hue faded

till all the clouds evaporated

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i was afraid

i cut my feet from my limbs

so I would stop running

from myself and begin

i sat under a tree

till everyone walked home

till night had come and gone

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I felt the beating

pounding of my heart

I could not detach,

though it was pulled apart

I lay silent awake

tell air deafening and loud

till roar rose, may madding crowd

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Examined each disturbing thought

origin of their pain

Tuned to singing bowls synapses of my brain

I heard the sound of my soul

A note never sounded

till I knew we never parted.

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All summer I never saw the sun

I waited for you

Then remembered , we are one

Breathe breathe … breathe in

I stopped waiting to exhale

released you from your promise

the guilt of betrayal

The numbness not knowing

Negative derail

perhaps now you know

the guilt belongs to you

Broken promise to yourself

the promise of you