HEAVY

Sometimes when we gain weight, we gain...weight.

So that we see and feel the gravity of a situation.

The heaviness bearing down on us making it more difficult to do everyday tasks, a physical manifestation of the emotional weight we are carrying.

It can be a barrier, a subconscious buffer attempting to safe guard us. A pause for self reflection that is self imposed.

Over weight is too much, more than we can bear. An uncomfortable truth.

Shifting weight from one foot to the other in an attempt to balance and stabilise, feeling it manifest in our body, that which we carried in our mind.

Changing your environment is helpful as it can pull focus, however attempting to change everything outside of us before we have understood ourselves is overlooking the cause.

Your body and every cell within it, has it's own ecosystem, it is affected by what you think and feel.

If you feed it with negative energy it will reflect this back to you. If you suppress negative emotions that have not been released it will find a way to express this. If you harbour beliefs that are limiting your growth you may find your body conspiring to question or examine these.

The divine intelligence of the human ecosystem has been and is still being studied by science.

The human body has an incredible ability to heal itself, if you create the optimum environment.

This is always from within first. No lap band surgery, no diet, no exercise program will be successful long term if you do not first change the topography of your mind.

This is why addiction is so hard to treat. It is not the substance that is causing the never ending need, it is the belief system, the unaddressed emotional wounds, the trauma that has not been acknowledged and allowed to heal. The hunger for the drug, food or adaptation that is the coping mechanism the body and mind employ which was originally a protective salve for survival.

Over time the addiction itself becomes 'the problem' and the cause is overlooked.

Rehabilitation is twofold you cannot take away someone's means of survival until they realise they are safe.

Safety is a basic human need, just as love, touch, human connection.

Studies have shown that this is just as important as food. In an orphanage in 1944 a study of healthy babies that were not held but still fed and changed, stopped growing and by the end of the study half of them had died.

If we have had an experience that left us feeling unsafe we will find ways to comfort ourselves.

It is human nature and survival hardwired into our DNA.

It has nothing to do with will power, or discipline.

Our unconscious trauma traps us into a loop of guilt or justification of our addictions.

To become aware and then responsible for the path we have traversed is to sojourn bravely into the unknown with the hand brake on.

Perhaps with a learned guide and with the love and support of our loved ones.

My safety wrapped around me like a warm hug, a cloaking device which made me invisible.

A layer of subcutaneous

separation anxiety, broken trust and life long patterns I repeated which entrenched themselves into my neural pathways so deep I had to un pick the seams one by one.

My fat forcefield did not protect me from what was inside of me, it was making my daily life more like molasses and instead of berating it, blaming it and making it all about the fat. I made it all about the why. I had to suspend my judgement of myself to understand my why. Eventually it unravelled and showed me, I knew that I was making progress because I felt peace. The peace was a silence without thoughts, without fear. In this space I now practice coherence, consciously, between mind body and spirit. Before this time, truly, they would often be separate, only together on special occasions. I say practice because the more I a tune to this feeling, vibration the more familiar it is to me and the less I want to return to building a forcefield.

Returning to our optimal state is the release of every piece we collected, coveted and were caretakers of. Letting go of control, of outcomes, the future, is where freedom begins. Letting go of everything that does not resonate with you.

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